First Kiss: Eighth Grade. With Eddie. I don’t really remember much about it to be honst.
First Love: Not sure if I’ve ever actually been in love. I take love seriously and I feel like I have never experienced being in love with someone, yet. I haven’t been in many relationships because I don’t really want to waste my time with people if I don’t think it’s going to last or be serious. I have had my flings, of course, but nothing really serious.
I will graduate from college. When? I have no idea. Probably fall 2014. I am so behind because of transferring so many times. But, I have finally figured out what I want to do and where I want to be, so yes, graduating. I will have a full time job as an LP, I’m not sure which store I will be at though, ideally I will stay at my store but I probably wont. I want to have kids. I want three. Yes, three. I want two boys and a girl. I want the girl to be the youngest. I want to be in love. And, I mean, absolutely in love. In love to the point where if I don’t have this person in my life I wouldn’t be able to breathe. I will get married only if I am that much in love. I want a house and numerous cats. I want to live in a small town where I can have many acres of land. I am totally over this city stuff. I want to be a stay-at-home mom but still have my degrees and job to fall back on, if need be. I want to grow old with the people I love.
A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.
When Ron recommended me to his boss. It was so spur of the moment, I had just mentioned to him how I would like to be an LP and he told me to stick around for 15 minutes after I got off my shift. He told his boss (in front of me) that he thinks I would be great and he truly doesn’t recommend anyone. Along with that, Mikey said that he would have liked me to have been at work at a day recently because he needed someone reliable to help him. Those two moments combined made me so satisfied and blissfully happy because I know, for once, that I am on the right path and doing something that I love.
I don’t think I actually SERIOUSLY considered it. I mean, I’ve had my times of being utterly depressed and I wished I could get away from where I am, but I don’t think I ever really wanted to end my own life. But, I am happy with where I am right now because even through all of the hard times I have grown and become an amazing person with amazing people in my life!
Hmmm. This is actually very tough. I am in no way religious. At all. I don’t believe in God. I’m not actually sure what I believe yet, I’m still trying to figure it out. What I do not like, however, is when people try to push their religion on me, or any religion for that matter. I want to figure this stuff out for myself, thank you. I hate when people look down upon others because they have a different (or no) religion. I also hate the hypocrisy that comes with a lot of religious groups. I can’t deal with it. I do think it’s cool that people have different beliefs though!
My life right now is a HOT mess. My moms cousin is living with us and he is SO fucking loud, I can’t deal with it. I don’t trust him, I have an inky feeling about him. The male species needs to get their shit straight. And, my job can suck on it for a bit. Male species: STOP PLAYING MIND GAMES. Seriously. Stop facebook messaging me but not replying if I ask why you don’t text me. Stop flirting with me at work if you don’t like me. Stop knowing if something is wrong when I don’t even tell anyone if something is wrong. Stop calling me at work because you know EXACTLY what phone I am standing next to. Just stop all of it if you still have a gf. I can’t deal with the heartache. If you can’t text me because you have a crazy ass gf and you share a line so you don’t want her to find out, JUST TELL ME. I am understanding, really. Just grow a pair and tell me. Oh, look at me being hypocritical because I am not telling you all this I’m just ranting about it on Tumblr. Whatever. Just stop. Also, stop being attractive so I can ignore you like I want to. I keep having these awesome plans where I ignore the absolute shit out of you, but then you say hi. fuck. And work, stop being the reason for all of this. If it wasn’t for you I wouldn’t have to deal with this. Also, cut the shit. Because of work I feel like EVERYTHING I do lately is wrong. Because I’ve been there only a year and a half and I already work as a supervisor and every fucking dept does NOT give people a right to give me shit and treat me like I am inferior. I don’t give a fuck if you have been there for 10 years and are a Lead of your dept, I am still a great worker. I still work my ass off. Shit, I do more than some of them do. Fuck, I DO THEIR JOBS. Also, If we don’t make our fucking credit goals it is NOT all my fault, we have 153 fucking associates, they can contribute too. Also, STOP HAVING AN UGLY GF. Please, stop acting like I didn’t call you out on some of the shit. can’t be ugly AND psychotic, it makes me feel super more shitty about myself.
They don’t bother me. If someone wants to fuck up their own life then so be it, just don’t pressure me to do it. I drink. Of course I drink, I’m 20, in college, and I work retail. If I didn’t drink I’d probably go insane. I have tried weed on a few occasions but it doesn’t appeal to me. Although, I do really like the smell of weed, I don’t know why. Ha ha. But yeah, if a consenting adult wants to do any drugs that they want it is their business, they can fuck their shit up as long as it doesn’t involve me or a child. However, if a close friend or family member of mine was fucking up their life by doing drugs I would probably have to say/do something because I love my friends and family more than anything.
On December 6th 2021, I would like to be sitting at home looking after my young child (probably under 3 years old) while carrying my next bundle of joy. No, seriously. I want to be married and starting a family in the next ten years. I also want to have my degree in Criminal Justice. I want to start my “big girl job” as an LP in my company within the next year. I eventually want to get married and have kids. When I start having kids I WILL become a stay-at-home mom. I think it’s the most important thing in a child’s life to have their parents involved in their lives. I want to be there in every way possible. But, who knows, for I am no Sybill Trelawney!