So I have A LOT to think about within the next few weeks. I have had chronic headaches and body pains for the past like 4-5 years, maybe even longer. I began having the headaches and body aches again recently and went to my doctor. My mom and gram have something called Fibromyalgia and my dr thinks I may have it too. I have all of the symptoms and it does make sense with everything that is wrong with me and why I seem like I am always sick and why I seem lazy. The problem is to get tested for that I have to go through a billion other tests to see if I have MS or something as serious or even more serious. I don’t really have the money to pay for all of these tests but it would be nice to finally know what is making me hurt so much. But, a BIG part of me doesn’t want to know because I know myself and if I let it get to me I will just use it as an excuse to be lazy, but I don’t want to.
First Kiss: Eighth Grade. With Eddie. I don’t really remember much about it to be honst.
First Love: Not sure if I’ve ever actually been in love. I take love seriously and I feel like I have never experienced being in love with someone, yet. I haven’t been in many relationships because I don’t really want to waste my time with people if I don’t think it’s going to last or be serious. I have had my flings, of course, but nothing really serious.
I will graduate from college. When? I have no idea. Probably fall 2014. I am so behind because of transferring so many times. But, I have finally figured out what I want to do and where I want to be, so yes, graduating. I will have a full time job as an LP, I’m not sure which store I will be at though, ideally I will stay at my store but I probably wont. I want to have kids. I want three. Yes, three. I want two boys and a girl. I want the girl to be the youngest. I want to be in love. And, I mean, absolutely in love. In love to the point where if I don’t have this person in my life I wouldn’t be able to breathe. I will get married only if I am that much in love. I want a house and numerous cats. I want to live in a small town where I can have many acres of land. I am totally over this city stuff. I want to be a stay-at-home mom but still have my degrees and job to fall back on, if need be. I want to grow old with the people I love.
A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.
When Ron recommended me to his boss. It was so spur of the moment, I had just mentioned to him how I would like to be an LP and he told me to stick around for 15 minutes after I got off my shift. He told his boss (in front of me) that he thinks I would be great and he truly doesn’t recommend anyone. Along with that, Mikey said that he would have liked me to have been at work at a day recently because he needed someone reliable to help him. Those two moments combined made me so satisfied and blissfully happy because I know, for once, that I am on the right path and doing something that I love.